Starting school

Dear Finley,

Well here it is. The day you start school. I have really been dreading it, pretty much for the last year, hoping that this summer would last a little longer. I can’t quite believe that the day has arrived. It’s surreal and definitely scary, yet exciting too.

We were a little bit in limbo before the summer holidays, holding out for a place on the wait list for our first choice school, knowing we were top of the list, and we were finally offered a place on the very last day of term. It was amazing news but because of this, you missed both the playdates and I never got a chance to meet any of the mums to arrange something over the summer. But none of this really matters all that much, children at your age make friends so easily and you’re such a fun likeable little boy that I’m sure you’ll have a new best friend within the first week!

So with all this in mind, the past couple of weeks have been super busy having lots of fun days out, and one final camping trip of the summer. But also busy with sorting out all your school bits and bobs, ironing and hanging up your new uniform, and buying your first ever pair of school shoes (which you said you don’t really like as you find them too hard and heavy!) Last week you had a little playdate at school, just for an hour, and that was so emotional for mummy. I cant imagine what i’ll be like today! You are really excited of course, I thought you may be a little nervous as we don’t know anyone at this school, but you seem to be taking it all in your stride and are not really fazed by it and I couldn’t be prouder.

I am of course excited for YOU, and this new chapter in your life. I absolutely loved school when I was a girl and have so many happy memories, therefore I  can’t wait for you to experience all of the same. Saying that, I myself am so not ready for this day. The day everything changes. Im really struggling with the thought of not having you here with me every day, the fact that you HAVE to go to school. I can’t just let you have the day off like in pre-school, if we decide to something fun. It all seems so grown up… It’s so true about what they say that the days are long but the years are short. I feel like i blinked and nearly 5 years just flashed by without me relishing every single moment.

It’s going to be tough for me not knowing what you are doing, not being there for you if you fall over and hurt yourself, or if someone is mean to you.

You are such a fun spirited, outgoing, funny and kind little boy, and I know you’re going to thrive, I know…I just wish I could rewind just a little, for a few more weeks together to enjoy, just us, being together. But of course I can’t so I’m already thinking about half term!

I’ll be brave for you my darling boy, i’ll hold back the tears when we kiss goodbye, but I may just squeeze you that little bit longer at your classroom door.

But i’ll be so proud of you and the big boy you’ve become.

My biggest baby at big school.

I love you more than all the stars and the whole world

Mummy x

 

This is a backdated post but definitely one I want to have to look back on here

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